NO

chips
ice cream
bread
snyders
munchies in general
dairy queen
coldstone
drive thrus (go hungry rather than use these, they trip too many switches)
pizza
egg nog
bulk candy section
muffins
cookies
candy bars
cereal
oscar mayer lunchmeats
pasta
cheesy foods (not sliced cheese, but cheese-smothered items and such)

NO

hiding my eating in order to eat more*
using food to celebrate or as comfort during sadness
eating when I'm bored*
eating while procrastinating**

          I have been bingeing for weeks now, and I am now broke, heavier, and bored.  I tend to eat the same things, and it's expensive to binge constantly.  Tomorrow's a new day, with new meal plans/ideas, new budgets, and new control.  :D

 LIST TO DO FOR MON AND WED:

• find Child & Adolescent Psych book
• write C&A Psych essay
• read chapters 8-10 in book and notes for Psych of Thinking
• read chapters 2, pp 31-45, ch 4, ch 5, pp 136-149, pp 161-174, ch 8, pp 196-207, pp 212-235, pp 236-247, pp 251-270, pp 272-277, pp 277-293, pp 293-298, pp 299-309, pp 309-330, ch 13, ch 14 for Physical Anthro
• read all semester notes for Physical Anthro
• read chapters 14-16 for C&A Psych

LIST TO DO TODAY

• make peach-raspberry pie dough (turned into pumpkin) and refrigerate
• read above list
• go to giant
• finish pie
• go to church luncheon @ 1230 (actually started at 1215 8[ )
• christmas shop

          On a messed-up note, I told Terr that he looked like he lost a couple pounds.  He said it was probably true, and that he hasn't been eating much lately.  He said he's been so busy, he doesn't even realize he has to eat until his stomach is growwwwling and then he has to think about when it actually was that he ate last.  That's so ridiculous.  I have never had to wonder when it was I last ate.  When I starved myself, I took pride in the time that had passed since I had last ate, but I knew exactly when that was.  Even when I'm living a healthy lifestyle (short-lived as it tends to be), I am always planning what I'm eating next, or thinking about what I ate last.  I've never known what it's like to not think about food all the time.  I guess that's a hallmark of any eating disorder - having an unhealthy relationship with food (using it or treating as anything but physical nourishment).

          Slowly getting thru stuff.  Bingeing all the way...I'll worry about it after finals.

Found this pic on another xanga (nomorethinspo) which pretty much explains me right now: